well Sam left today and I am sad and I just kept looking out the windows of his house trying to concentrate on pretty much anything else. I wandered off with the dogs and picked up baby pinecones after we loaded up his car. He found me peeking at the sheep. All day he kept giving me the softest kisses on my forehead and letting out big sighs. He kept asking if I was okay.
But I did something kind of silly. When he was downstairs he heard an old toy he had go off. I was holding it. He asked if it was the dinosaur thing, and I told him yes and before he came upstairs, I shoved it in his bag underneath clothes. He also couldn’t take his Liverpool soccer team thing with him in fear it would get hurt so I bought him a new one without telling him and sent it to his new place. It should be there by Friday.
I realized, in the last few months, I have an odd way of showing affection. I do sit things like hide a dinosaur toy in his bag because he laughed when I found it and played with it. And ordered him something to be sent there as a surprise so he felt more at home. I write letters. I’m more playful than anything.
I think I have a face people trust. I can see why. I don’t think I’m beautiful, honestly, but I have a soft face with big blue eyes that look young. I have a gentle look about me; I’m approachable, I think. I have a personality that, although I’m shy, I’m welcoming and warm. People just open up to me without me prompting them. It’s both a blessing and a curse.
badddituude said: Jordan are you tainted like us now?!
ashley lmfao if you’re asking what i think you’re asking yes and have been for a while >:)